She was standing in the middle of the most beautiful sight of her life. Something she’s been waiting for all her life. It was perfect. She had all she wanted. Well, almost all she wanted.
It was 10’o clock. It was drizzling softly outside. The kind of weather that the locals hated. They couldn’t stop complaining about the rain. The quaint little fountain outside the apartment made a lovely gushing sound that was so comforting. She loved it, couldn’t get enough of it. The entire setting matched her mysteriously gloomy mood. From the balcony, she could see the trains in the distance. There was a comforting chill. The kind that makes you want to cuddle in a blanket, sip wine and hold hands. There was something missing. For the life of her she couldn’t figure it out.
The feeling in the pit of her stomach wouldn’t just go away. Pressing against the cold rails so hard that she could feel the chillness hit her bones didn’t help either. This was such a wrong place to be alone. It puzzled her even more ‘cos she guarded her space so fiercely that she thought she convinced herself she liked solitude. She yearned for familiarity. The familiar noise, roads, people, and even her not-so-glamorous apartment. Everything she’d complained so much about kinda became the things that she yearned for the most. The long rides to the office in the morning, the shitty traffic, and even her extremely small bean bag. The sound of alien languages that once used to an exotic thing drove her insane. Trying to follow incomprehensible accents was no longer cool. She longed to feel at home. Home suddenly began to feel like extremely defined space, her territory. Her haven. Her uncompromisable haven.
Everytime something reminded her that this was just a beginning, the knot in the pit of her stomach thickened. Sometimes, it was so hard to put a finger on what was happening to her that even tears wouldn’t flow.
The silence was suddenly broken by the train rumbling in the distance. Life goes on. Clenched fists, gnashing teeth and a smile can you get you through anything. ANYTHING!